The same struggles

Tonight, Mariah said to me, "Mommy, I hate babies..... I only love Evangeline. I hate all those other babies."

And I was faced with the reality that although we are on different levels,  my sweet innocent 4 year old and I face the same struggles. How absolutely unfair that she needs to know this loss. How cruel that she misses OUR baby and doesn't understand why all these other babies are here and our baby can't be, just like me.

I gently said to her "I know Mariah... But I think Evangeline would be ok with us loving other babies too. So you don't have to hate them. Evangeline wouldn't want us to hate babies."

And she gave me a great big hug and said, "I looove Evangeline."

I do too, Mariah. I do too.