It's sad that my 4 year old truly understands just how unfair life can be. Today as I was getting her ready for school, we had this conversation:
Mariah: Mommy, I don't want Evangeline in my heart.
Mommy: But we'll always keep her in our hearts...
Mariah: She CAN'T be in my heart, she needs to be in her crib!
I hugged her as tight as I possibly could and cried "I know baby, I know."
My heart shattered into a million pieces again.
I cry for everything my younger daughter will never experience, and I also cry for my older daughter's loss of having a baby sister here.